Handwriting

I’m curious how a person’s handwriting develops. Does it usually happen only unintentionally? Because for me, it’s entirely contrived. Maybe it’s only because my natural handwriting is so utterly awful. But maybe it is this way only because I haven’t used it since junior high. Since then, with a few short exceptions, I have always written in small, all caps lettering. You know the kind. With typewriter precision. The problem is it’s too darn slow. I just wish I could have a decent-looking fast handwriting.

Today I created a new handwriting for myself, and I think I will use it for a while to see if it becomes natural. I like to be able to break away from my all-caps thing, but this is still pretty slow for me. I tried doing the lower-case ‘a’ like most computer fonts show it, my ‘e’ in two distinct strokes instead of one curling line. I changed how I pen a lot of other letters, too, but these are maybe the biggest changes. I like it, it looks neat, clean. I suppose it reflects my personality a lot, just like my all-caps writing does. I’m clean-cut, linear in thought, and I like things ordered.

Yet I can’t help but think that when I don’t consciously put thought into my penmanship, it’s stinking repulsive. I wonder if that says something about my personality, too.